Today is officially the last day of my first week of beauty school and I just absolutely loved it! my teacher is awesome and makes it fun. Im glad Im back in class with my friends from the furat two weeks cause I missed them! As if right now Im impatiently waiting for Monday to hurry the frick up and get here so I can know what the surprise is from my hubby cause the suspense is killing me gah!

So this week Ive started my new classes. I’m taking Esthetics to learn how to wax, do makeup, and give facials. This is only the first week of school for me, but its already changing the way I look at myself. Im starting to gain more confidence and believe in myself more. I think this will not only be a life changing experience for me but for people who’s make up I do as well.

It’s official! I have been married to my hero and best friend for 1 month and 5 days! Although he’s been gone for most of those days it’s been the best decision I’ve ever made. I love him more than anything in this world, well our baby cuts a close second place. I’m 4 months and 1 week pregnant with our first child and we can’t wait to find out what we’re having. Today we have hit our first milestone…Baby has started kicking and moving around so I can feel it. It feels so awkward…Ha ha.

In six days I will be marrying this wonderful man! I’m so excited! He’s my best friend, the love of my life and my better half! He makes me smile even when I really don’t want to, he’s annoying at all the “right” times, but I can’t stay mad/annoyed at him forever because he’s so cute! He’s leaving for a year to go to Afghanistan, right after we get married and I’m devastated, but I know he’ll be okay and he’ll come back home safely to my arms and our little baby. 

I’m 19 years old, I turn 20 on the 17th of February, I’m pregnant with my first baby, getting married on the 5th of February, and to top it off, my future husband is deploying to Afghanistan the 26th of February. Now, some people may be thinking, how the heck will you be able to do it all? My answer will be faith every time. I’m not ready for this at all and I’m not looking forward to it either. I’ve hated being pregnant since day one and I still am not looking forward to it.

He still gets to go out and party if he wants to, but I no longer have that luxury. It’s not so much that he gets to have fun ad I don’t, it’more of the fact that he’d rather be going out to the bar than being with me. He’s already planning on going partying when he gets home from being deployed, which leaves me with the baby, but by then I’ll be so used to him being gone it may not even bug me by that point. He’ll be the one who misses everything with the pregnancy, not me. He’ll miss the baby’s first movement, he’ll miss getting to know what sex it is, and he’ll miss the birth, I will be there for all of it. The baby will be 6-7 months old by the time he gets home from war and the baby won’t even know who his daddy is, but if he wants to go out and party when he comes home, fine. He missed everything else with the baby, why would it matter to him if he misses more.